This is how getting ready for church went this afternoon……
I laid Novalie’s dress on her bed like I do every single Sunday. I told her it was time to get dressed and followed her into her room to help with tights and zipping. She took one look at the dress and this is what our conversation went like:
“I don’t like this dress! Why do I always have to wear what you want me to wear?!” Novalie says as she throws the dress on the ground.
Wow, I thought. Where did that come?!
I say, “Okay, you don’t have to wear that dress. Why don’t you pick out your dress?”
Novalie picks one that is still hanging in her closet, but has long been too short. I tell her, “that dress is too short so you will have to choose something else.”
“YOU NEVER LET ME WEAR WHAT I WANT TO!” Novalie screams! Holy smokes!
I am trying to stay calm, “I am sorry that you are so upset, but you are going to have to choose a dress that fits still,” I say.
She picks a jumper and tells me, “LEAVE, I CAN DO IT BY MYSELF!”
I walked out of the room completely stunned and speechless about what just happened. I mean she is 6 for heaven’s sake! She has never ever even come close to caring about what she wears except when it comes to jeans or pants that button. I have known for a while that she doesn’t like to wear tight fitting clothing, but that was just a normal conversation. I usually pick out her pants and let her pick out her shirt or let her pick out the pants and then I get a shirt that matches. I have always given her some choice in her outfit except on Sunday’s because their in preparation that goes into Sunday dress. Like ironing and making sure we have tights that match now that it is cold. So, I have always just laid her dress out. Let me tell you, not anymore! I am still pretty much speechless, but did get a laugh out of it when I was replaying it for Kevin. I mean this can’t be happening already?! All I can think is that I am in way over my head!
As I watched Novalie run into school this morning with her hands full of folders, lunch box and rain boots (yes, she has a backpack, but it is to hold her stuff animals that have to go to school with her everyday….why else have a backpack, right?) I was overcome with emotion. Not the deep sadness that I felt all of September trying to adjust to this new phase of life. I was overcome with joy and pride. I said outloud to myself through my tears with a smile on my face as I watched her, “What an incredible girl!” She is just so darn fantastic and I am so proud of her!
I have a lot to be thankful for which is hard to remember when I have surrounded myself with so much self pity. Enough already. There are many advantages to having this new life situation that I find myself in. I am going to look to this bright side often now and get my toosh in gear. Some of the advantages:
-I get to take a long hot bath everyday instead of a 2 minute shower.
-I get to do the treadmill without being interrupted every 30 seconds with “are you done yet? How many more minutes? Is it my turn?”
-I don’t have to find a babysitter for doctor appointments and church related happenings during the week.
-I can spend 2 hours in the fabric store if I want to (and believe me I DON’T want to, but can’t help it sometime because I have been blessed with the inability to make a decision!)
-I wish I could say that my house is spotless, but let’s be real….Novalie or no Novalie, cleaning is the pits! I keep the dishes done, floored swept, mopped and vacuumed, clothes clean and toilets clean. Anything more than that is a bonus!
-I can watch or listen to what I want when I want!
-I can even take a nap if I want to, but I haven’t yet….I will have to work on that!
-I can volunteer for more things and have time to serve more which I love.
-I can go out to lunch and it doesn’t have to be McDonald’s.
-If I am sick, I can lay in bed all day long and REST! Imagine that!
-I can read about things I am interested in on the computer or in a book and not feel guilty or be interrupted.
-I can talk on the phone for as long as I want, which I am SO not a phone talker (I despise my phone), but it is the only way I can talk to my sisters.
-I can sew all day.
There are many many more, but I feel better already listing some of them. Life is good, I have so much to be thankful for and I am so proud of Novalie and how she amazes me daily with her kindness and good choices! Now, my toes are freezing, so I am going to go take one of those long hot baths!